I'm lucky to be able to go home to California a few times a year. I'm unlucky to be able to go home to California a few times a year.
|Little detail at the home of my friend, the International Woman of Mystery; it's the sort of Spanish architecture (and friend) I miss most.|
(Not to be confused by the sort of "Huh???" ennui brought on by your average "Mad Men" episode, which is running at a 18.4 average this season. Zou Bisou Bisou don't you wish you knew where they were going with all of this?)
I miss the palm trees. I miss the beach. I miss my best friends. I miss decent weather and theater, mostly in that order. Hell, I sometimes even miss that slightly flaky frame of mind that passes as "laid back" there. More than anything, I miss the dream of the life I once envisioned - the schools to which I'd send my kids, the neighborhood I'd dreamed about moving to - the ones my best friends would have all lived in, conveniently - the summer beach parties . . .
. . . and yet . . . yet . . . to move back there would be to sacrifice the quality of life we have here, my ability to stay home with the wee CEO and live in a good school district and all of that other boring stuff we Smug Mummies care about. Living here, we can also travel and have occasional date nights out and still live comfortably, and this yuppie is incredibly grateful for it.
There's a lot of Texas that comes naturally to me, particularly now as a parent. I like the emphasis on family here, and I'm down with church and football, usually in that order. My head knows this.
I believe in blooming where you're planted, as it were - I can find happiness wherever I live. It's just that I'm not planted where I once thought I'd be. It's a wonderful life - just a different one than I'd envisioned.
Is it awful to admit that it would be strange for me to move back home and not be able to afford the life I enjoyed as a child?
Can I finally learn to live with missing home while appreciating the wonderful new home I have here?
Can we all admit that "GCB" is the best thing going in new television right now, big haired Hollywood-ized Texas camp and all?
Anyone else struggle with the desire to go home - or just "GCB"-style melodrama in general (sans the big hair, unfortunately - believe me, I've tried)?