It's an odd place, this approaching the mid . . . thirties. There, I admitted it, in public, here on the interwebs for all to read. As I inch into decrepit elderly status, I'm actually getting more young in some ways.
Of course, life now doesn't quite have that carefree, "What will I be when I grow up" wonder to it as it did in my
I don't know that I have any more answers at 34 (it's awful seeing that number just sitting there baldly like that). However, not only do I feel like I'm finally reaching some of those picket-fence life milestones, I'm also getting back to the things I really love to do, those things where I am most Me, the stuff I was too busy studying
|Clearly my inability to look decent in a photo is also an ongoing superpower - let's focus instead on the cute pony.|
I'm writing more. I'm reading more, and one day, I hope to get back to the riding. About that latter bit - I'm one of those girls who never truly recovered from the pony phase of life. While I have neither the resources nor the time now to get back into it on the competitive level, the desire is there, quietly biding its time in the background. I can't wait to give Master P his first riding lesson, and not only because that will give me the excuse to sneak one in for myself, but to see if that joy is there for him as well.
Ironically, of course, this return to my roots comes at a moment when I've never had less free time. The thing is, the older I get the more I gain a Yoda-like perspective on this - if you want to make something happen, you will figure it out someday, somehow.
Funny how as we get older, if we're lucky, we become more childlike too - and I don't mean in that tired "old people wear diapers" (hold me . . . ) sense. Rather, as much as I've changed over the years, those places where I most truly know joy, know peace, have not. In the pages of a book, typing at a keyboard, or holding the reins is where I'm at my best, and I'm finally old (young?) enough to start realizing it.
What are some of your secret superpowers you hope to get back to one day?